I had a troubled childhood. I was born with a Social Anxiety Disorder but back then, I don't know why I felt like I did and no one acknowledged mental illness in Lithuania.
We move to Brooklyn, NY first and then Atlanta, GA before coming to Orlando, FL. In the first two states, I lived in each for about a year.
I'm trying to making a very long story short. The background is important.
Let's skip over to third grade. I'm still experiencing strong anxiety so my parents don't know what to do with me. They put me in a private school. I was a bully at first but then I changed schools and it was my turn.
My anxiety was just growing and growing .I dropped out of high school because of it and with the depression, I was ready to kill myself. This was the beginning of my fight with drugs.
I figured if I was gonna kill myself, why not try drugs to see if that's the answer. Great thinking, huh? I wanted to know the nature of the universe and I was really messed up mentally.
I got clean in 2014, I think. I'm not going to give out many details because I don't want anyone getting triggered but yes I was IVing. I got on medicine to help me.
I was then involved in a very bad car accident. This is when doctors finally acknowledged that I have a very bad General Anxiety Disorder. After a Traumatic Brain Injury further affecting my anxiety and with the potential of seizures, I have to take a certain medicine. Because of the accident, also there's been various symptoms over the few years since. Latest one was when I was working at a warehouse and one day I started noticing I'm getting tired fast. Soon, I was waking up after working one day feeling like I worked a week straight.
I was constantly exhausted.
To add to the slap in the face, I couldn't do the thing I loved anymore that would calm me down. That's lifting weights. I am a bodybuilder and recently I've sorted my health issues out. I'm growing again since a month ago from when this post is published.
Me and my wife are about to move and my business is growing. The problem? Although we have just enough to get in to the lot and register our trailer, I won't have money for my medicine that I need.
I am happy to be doing better and I'm gonna get through it. When I started this website, I was weak. Even though it wasn't so bad that I would notice, it affected me a lot. The car crash robbed me of so much energy that I couldn't do much and it hurt me that not only was I not providing, I wasn't doing anything.
My wife Porsha is very understanding and loving but I still needed to do something. My goal at the time was to actually get a car. Well, I decided to get one that needs to be fixed up so I could get it cheap and learn.
And so started the website you see. This website has taught me a lot and ended up being a huge part of my life. I didn't learn to make money on my own - besides getting a normal job - before this and I feel proud, honestly. I'm doing what I love.
Thank you for supporting me and my wife. She has dreams that one day, she can just be my secretary (Oooo) for my business. Without her, thought, we wouldn't have made it this far.
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I decided to add this car wishlist for two reasons. The first is that I have memory issues and it's not cool when you find an awesome product and forget it ever existed. My memory isn't that bad but there's two reasons, like I said.
The other one has to do with what I said about people who want to help. I don't have a Patreon and I don't make money from this website nor am I asking for any. I like doing this. But I know there might be people out there with spare parts they would rather give away or even people who want to represent their shop, do some work on the car, and get some credit and advertisement.
Just because not everybody is going to read the article I mentioned above, I'll make a long story short. I've been completely broke up until now. However, I am finally doing better with my awesome wife working, my health getting better, and my auto parts business is growing. In 2019 I won't be so tight on money so although it helps a lot if someone chooses to help me out, I'll be okay in the long run.
Again, you will get a thanks and a mention on the website along with whatever you want to advertise.
Let's do this! The List:
[ ] A classy spoiler. There was a spoiler from an old Japanese tuning company at the junkyard when I got my first LS400. Not knowing, I said eh, there will be more spoilers if I want it later. They're like $6-700... This one is minor - I have that very classy carbon fiber wing now.
[ ] A new bumper. A stock one is fine. Mine isn't so great. Also, an aftermarket bumper would be preferred. However the idea right now is to modify a bumper myself.
[ ] Valve cover gasket kit.
[ ] Better front seats. Some small rips are fine compared to the torn up seats I have now.
[ ] To this day, not only do I not know what this thing is called but I couldn't even explain it to an AutoZone employee. I need a white strip that goes across the top of my windshield. You guys have to know what I'm talking about.
Screw it, there's a picture. That's Mike Jones' amazing first gen. I'm pretty sure unless he changed the lights. Anyway I'm talking about the cheetah print one he has. I just want a white one...
[ ] Sun visors on the doors but probably not on the roof.
[ ] Side view mirrors when I find the right ones. I want the classic, probably 1950-60s, side view mirrors that some cars had mounted on the hood. It works fine for them so I don't see why it wouldn't work. It would make the car so much cleaner looking.
The stock side view mirrors would be taken out so I would be left with these nice small mirrors. Now that I'm thinking about it, I know there's been Ferraris and probably Jaguars with that type of side view mirror.
My wife: "No." Time to fix hers...
I Googled some pictures and this came up. It's not an LS400 but the body style is similar and shows you what I'm trying to do except not so s&$#ty looking... Sorry guy. It's the rainbow. This must be in Japan.
[ ] Tune - just need to save up to do a proper tune after I do the exhaust and possibly modify the intake.
[ ] New wheels. I've always said I like the stock wheels but I would definitely rather go with some sort of 18s. In the mean time, I'm painting them.
[ ] Little trim pieces and stuff; across the car, there is minor things missing like the knob that adjusts your cluster brightness and one of the ashtray lids in the back is broken.
[ Trading ] That's what I need but I know people need parts too that they sometimes can't get for a decent price or at all. I will be posting the extra parts I have. If you need any, contact me on Instagram @rokask1 and we'll do something. I don't necessarily need anything back depending on the item - just the shipping fee.
- Two different main coil packs.
- An engine cover.
- Special lugnut key.
- Camshaft Position Sensor
My brain isn't awake apparently because I have more. I also go to the salvage yard so I can find you something. This is how it should be, people! Help each other.
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